A Strange Affair ~ Depression

The kiss
of promise
to always be
the quiet of me

Loneliness
like cold death

Oh Jealous Lover
it has always been you

The sadness of a cross
lays like a crucifixion
in darkness
this sordid affair
you call me
and I crawl the weight of you
your breath like humidity
takes mine
in the kiss

you know me well
you hide behind a veil
the clouds are now my eyes

such a strange affair
my only companion
since I was when
You were there then
took over my dreams
my youth
even my illusions
turned disillusions

how you wear me down
I’ve carried you for years
Im so tired
my back has turned me on myself

my control freak friend
Im just concerned
how this affair will end
I find myself
trying to hide things from you
even the scars that cut deep
with your name
till i was blue
but somehow you have a hand
in that too

You have convinced
the world that you are needed
they worship you
write your name
in script
and in turn
you have turned viral

Taking the world on
with a force
of quiet submission
I lay in wait for your one mistake
my control freak friend
my jealous lover
and when you do
I will be there
ready for you
as all lovers do

into the deep

dark eyed blue
in this pool waters eyes
how deep is the me of all this
that hasn’t seen brighter days
take the road of stars
burning shrapnel of life
a sun never rising
even on summer days
patterns form in breeze
movments of dance
not seen before
untravelled roads

I do

 

in between 

complex of the feel 

anything real 

runs through my fingers 

of these afraid’s I cannot hold 

small 

I am 

in my shell 

curled on a diamond 

the fine sands of my time 

never stay 

wish I had a world big inside of me 

that said I do 

 

the never ending tides

wash all away